Acceptance

January 23, 2006

~there are things that I just wanted to take care on my own…..
~I want to solve my own problems and see the outcome of my solutions……. I guess I just wanted to make sure that I could take things my way and tell the world that even though life has a lot of hard lessons and struggles, I could stand up for myself and say “Hay! Life’s not bad after all.”
~That’s what I wanted to believe………
~ There are things I want to learn, things that I shouldn’t forget, and meet people that would remember me for who I am………
~I’m not hopeless, no please don’t think of me like that…… I just want to let all my emotions out without hurting anyone I love…… that’s why I decided to take things on my own without the help of my friends or family….. I just don’t want them to worry about me too much…… so that’s the reason why they think that I’m a person full of laughter, happiness, smiles……..
~but they’re wrong……… I’m just wearing a mask just to make them think that I’m fine, that I’m ok……. I grew up depending only on my own…..
~people expect me to be perfect…. But I’m absolutely the opposite…. I have my own share of imperfections… I create mistakes….. I’m being confused and unsure….. I just want to be treated as a normal person and that is all………
~at first I believed that being who I want to be is sometimes the wrong thing to do…. Maybe that’s why at the first place I forgot who I really am…….. Never knowing that I’ve already lost a big part of me……..
~while i'm searching for the right person to be with….. I think I should also search the other side of me…… the real me …………